If you should ever question if there is a God....

I've been wanting to type this blog for awhile, I feel that what happened to me should be shared, it is truly an amazing story...

I won't get into why my marriage fell apart, but I will take you to the day of my final court hearing for the divorce....
I got to the court house early and sat in my car in the parking deck, I couldn't believe it, about ten years of my life spent with a person, and it will all be over after I walk out of the courtroom. I sat in my car for about 20 minutes bawling my eyes out, I feel like such a failure, I feel all alone, I can't believe this is happening to me. What have I done to have to go through this...I know I haven't been to church in a few years but I cried out to God, who I felt had just overlooked me. I then got mad...mad at God. I said out loud "God, you said that in times like these you would carry me, where the hell are you now???" There was a person sitting in their car beside me, surely they could see how upset I was that my life was falling apart, surely they could see me punching my staring wheel, yelling, and crying... and they pulled away..."God, why can't you just send someone to come and even ask me how I'm doing? Where are you, and why aren't you here for me???" I know that I haven't been living the Christian lifestyle that I once was, maybe God had just overlooked me since it had been so long...

I finally pulled myself together enough to get out of the car, walk across the bridge to the courthouse. On the other side of the bridge I noticed an older man with white hair looking at me and as I started to walk past him, he said to me, "excuse me", I looked up at him and he said, "how are you doing?" my eyes welled up, (did God actually send someone to ask me how I was doing? surely not, these things never happen to me). I told the man, that I'm not doing well, for when I leave the courthouse I will be officially divorced. "First marriage?" he asked. "Yes," I replied. "Wow, that's tough. You know I think you are the one I was supposed to come down here and talk to today." He handed me a brand new book called "Becoming a Woman Who Pleases God". Chills went down my spine, and I really started bawling, who was I to question God, He sent this man, or angel, to come and talk to me, He specifically answered my angered requests to send someone to ask me even how I am doing. The man went on to say, "God is with you and will carry you through this, you don't need to have a doubt about that." Again, more confirmation that this was of God. He asked me if he could say a short prayer with me and I said sure. Then we both walked through the courthouse doors side by side, I turned to the left and he turned to the right, I went to turn back to say thank you again to him, and he was gone.

Now, I'm definately not the type of person that tries to shove religion down anyone's throat or anything like that, I think I'm a pretty straight forward, down to earth kind of girl. But this story really did happen to me, if you don't believe me I still have the book in my living room. No matter how far away you feel from God, He is really there right by your side through thick and thin.

Ok, next post I'm sure won't be as serious, but I just thought that this event in my life should be shared with all.

Love you all!
Tricia :-)